Well its over! I am official done work. No regrets. A few tears were shed. Not because I am sad to leave, but I worked hard… shared the truth with many over the years…. tried to do my job as unto God. I Pray that some seeds of truth have been planted. Now the next thing to work through. Saying goodbye to my sons. It will be difficult but I know that God has brought me this far and he will continue to give me strength for the journey.
I was thinking last night and this morning about the cost to following God. I remember telling God when I first began my walk that I wanted God to do whatever it takes to make me into the person that I am to be in Him. Little did I know at that time that He would anyway and didn’t need my permission as it says in scripture that He will complete the work He starts in His own.
There has been a cost, a cost I would give up over and over again in order to be obedient to my Lord. I have lost family and friends over and over again as my walk has taken me further into obedience. Jesus said there was a cost. I am not sure many people have counted the cost or even given it a second thought. Many have said the sinners prayer and then continued to live a life of comfort and ease and have never given up or lost anything due to their belief. Somethings wrong with that!
I guess to, the situation that I am in right now is that where I live and who I know around here or back east, where I grew up, have a different doctrine. There belief system is very Arminian and our Gospel is very different. Therefore we have nothing in common. We are not brethren. We are not family. My personal family is not saved. Again, nothing in common. I was quite upset about this last night and felt quite lonely. Then I remembered the cost. It still hurt but I praised God that He saw fit to separate me from those that believe a lie. He saw fit to save a wretch like me!
I thank God that He is allowing my husband and I to be apart of a community of like minded brethren. I long for fellowship and being able to be productive in a God centered way.
So I do not leave the world with sadness… NO I leave Egypt with Songs of Praise and deliverance!!!! There is a cost but the prize out ways anything man can offer!!!