In response to your words. I am thankful that you have decided to check out my blog. I have waited a long time for you to find your way here.
When I think of you I remember when you were very little and your big brown eyes would light up when you encountered new things and new adventures. You have always had a sensitive heart and a kind way about you. I have been always proud of your integrity and courage to stand for what is right. You brought me much joy when you were born and raising you to be a young man I didn’t want you to follow the crowd. But to trust in the Lord for all things.
I know that things changed when you turned 17 and wanted to find your own way and think for yourself. Even in this I trusted God and still do when it comes down to final choices. I know to that you have lost your way. Your decision to make it on your own and do what you thought was right was hard on me. But again I let you go. I knew I couldn’t hold you back even if I tried. I also knew that you had to grow up and let you make mistakes and Yes even bad choices.
No I don’t like the kinda life you lead now but again it is your choice. My prayers are always lifted to God in hopes that you are His and that His will, will be done in your life.
A mothers love does not stop because her sons ways are not her own. A mothers love is forever! Yes sometimes I get disappointed, only because I want the best for you. I don’t want to see you in pain or discomfort. Yet sometimes this to is necessary in order for you to see the truth. Besides none of those are worse then an eternity of pain and discomfort!
I am sorry if I have disappointed you and let you down. I am human and can fail as we all can. My choices in life have been hard ones sometimes, yet they have been done while trusting that they are what God wants. A choice I have made has hurt you I know. I know to that some day you will have to make a choice that will hurt another, this is apart of life. My decision to move was based on being obedient to God not man. No one made me do it. It was a choice. I wanted to do what I knew in my heart was from the Lord. Even if I wasn’t married and I learned the truth of the Gospel of Christ I would have made the same decision. You could have come with me my son. I never wanted to leave you! But when Jesus says follow me you do! No matter what the cost. And it does cost!
I am not that far away. I am alive and well and continue to desire you to join me. I will always be your mother! I will always pray for you! I will always love you! No matter what.
May you find your way. May your heart be open to the things of God. May He reveal His Glory to you and you see His will and do it. May God’s will be done in your life no matter what the cost! We are only miles apart now. Your eternal destiny could put us apart for ever!
May the Lord hold you in the palm of His hand and guide your steps to truth.
From your Mother with much prayer and love. XOXOXOX